Being jobless takes a toll on you. You get used to having money coming in consistently, or always having something to do or someone to report to. Having a steady job gives you a since of being. All the other things began to fall into place when that void of time is lifted from your schedule. You would think it would be an "ooohhh, I have a lot of time to do this, or that". It's, in fact, however the complete opposite. Your time is filled with filling out applications, and waiting. Oh, I forgot to mention that I had to move on top of it. This means to move to a city I'm not yet familiar with. So lets add this up.
- Cashflow... hault.
- Your own space... nah.
- Transportation... Dude, you better use them feet!
- Vacation planing??? You crazy? You want to plan a vacation? Your life is a vacation, currently.
- Artwork (paitining)... Well, I don't really have a place where I'm staying where someone would mind oil paint stains all over their stuff.
I say all this to that this state of limbo, of purgatory that I'm currently in serves as a bit of punishment. And here I am thinking, "oh.. I'm about to leave my employer, and live in another city! Lucky me". I'm surely lucky, but this part is AWFUL.
However, there are some good things that have happened. I take that back, there are plenty of good things that have happened while here in purgatory. I do understand that in life, you sometimes have to "steal from Peter, to feed Paul".
- Thanksgiving (first thanksgiving in about 7 years)
- I have been forced to draw again. I really missed it.
- I've been able to be around my family. Which was needed.
- I've been able to spend time with my boys. (#FamTight)
- And I've been able to be around the love of my life much more. Eva Müller.
God, I love this woman. She's held me down and is the best teammate I could ever have. I'm glad to call her my other half. I will be brief because I don't know how she feels about me telling the world about "us". But seriously, she's fucking awesome (no other way to put it here, friends).
But to the point. She's known that I've been going through it lately. She also knows personally one of the perks about being jobless that I didn't mention earlier. Watching FOOTBALL!! You seriously thought I was going to forget that? I've never been able to follow the season in its entirety due to the fact that my previous employer (apple retail) made my schedule around the "needs of the business", which basically means I had to work EVERY saturday AND sunday, and the week days are a crap shoot. This issue is no longer relevant. This beautiful woman actually got me/us both tickets to the San Francisco vs. Carolina Panthers game. Soley for clarity purposes, you have to understand that not only had I never been to an NFL game, but to see my Panthers play in the last year of the historical Candlestick Park is amazing in itself. But to be the underdog in the fight, and actually to have WON??? Too much. You can't make this up, folks. I couldn't take anymore. So I thought.
Remember, I'm able to come home for thanksgiving this year, right? So I bring my life partner, Eva with me to tag along and meet the folks, and see the farm. She/we had a great time and that hurtle was easily leapt without any effort on her behalf. It was like watching Jordon going out and dropping 48 on the Knicks, with a stomach bug. This thanksgiving thought, the Carolina vs. Clemson rivalry game was to commence. I can't remember the last time I stepped foot into William-Brice Stadium, and surely couldn't imagine it would be THIS year?? Impossible. I'm jobless. I don't have a home. Theres no WAY that I can pull the biggest game of the Panthers regular season schedule (in San Fran), and turn around and make in the gates to watch the #10 Gamecocks face off the #6 Tigers (in Columbia, SC)?? Guess what happened??
And the follow are from the Panthers vs. 49ers game, in Candlestick Park (San Francisco, CA.)